Do Over *1x1 dark and desire*

"I understand where he's coming from but he has no right to judge me for what I did 10 years ago bf it's behind us....I hope and I'm here now that's all that matters" I said softly you could tell I was mad but I wasn't gana take it out on you or Seth bc it wasn't your fault f

I shrugged, "yes those words still hurt but I am almost 30 years old, I can't keep being angry at you. That's why I agreed to go out with you again. Daniel has a thing for me, I know because his sister told me. But I've never felt anything for him," I said.

I sat in a chair and sighed softly resting my hands against my head. "I'm sorry for everything I prob should never have come back jussi inh more problems for you it seems" I said softly

"Hey! Don't you dare say that, forget about me OK? You're not here because of me. You're here because of that amazing little boy upstairs. Don't even say you're sorry about causing me trouble because that little boy needs you and he loves you. Yes he was angry at first but then he calmed down and now you're all he wants," I said a little angry about his words.

I signed softly. "Your right he's what matters but please try and keep the dog on a leash I held back as best I could and you know my temper isn't the best and Iv been working on it which is the only reason I'm not in jail right now" I said softly quietly "and I understand that it's not your fault he came by today

"All he has done is helped me. He can't change what we're doing together or alone," I replied softly. "This means nothing at all, him being near us."

"Just please don't leave me alone with him" I said softly

"Alright I won't," I said as I put my hand on his arm like I use to. I used this to calm him and if he couldn't then I had to kiss him. It was all I knew to do when it came down to keeping him calm. Seth came downstairs in his PJs, "hey buddy." I smiled at him as he looked at us. "What's going on?" He asked.

I signed softly and looked up at both of you "me and Dave I guess his name is had a disagreement bc of the past Seth that is all. We got off on the wrong foot that is all" I said softly "can I ask you a favor Seth?

"What is it Dad?" He asked curiously.

"Please don't say anything negative around him even if it's a small fight between me and mom keep it to yourself please atleast around him. I don't know how close you 2 are but I don't need him hating me anymore than he already does" I said softly

He nodded, "OK dad." I checked the time. "Its reading time," I told him and he nodded. "I want dad to read to me," he said. I looked at him, "its his homework."

I nod and say up straight "ok bring me the book

He smed and ran off to get his book. When he came back he sat with him and I decided to sit and listen too.

I smiled and read to him for as long as was needed

After an hour he started dozing so I stood. "OK buddy its time for bed," I said and he didn't argue. "Tell daddy goodnight," I said and he hugged Luke. "Night dad."

I hugged back and sent him up to bed

I put him to bed and kissed his head before going downstairs to do some cleaning up. I smiled at Luke as I passed him. "At least when he is in bed the house won't be as quiet anymore, it get lonely sometimes," I said.

"I'm sure I'm surprised you never got a dog to fill the space or even a cat" I said softly as I got up and helped with the cleaning "this place hasn't changed much since I left" I said softly "I noticed that on the way in im also surprised you stayed

"I was going to, but with Seth on the way I knew it wouldn't be a good idea to move around on my own with him. Then I thought if I stayed maybe you'd grow curious and just want to know what became of me so if I kept the house you knew exactly where I was and you could meet him. Money was tight for a long time so we really couldn't do much about furniture. And he's allergic to animal fur, he can't play at Josephine's because they have a cat."

I sighed softly and nodded. "Iv been diving so deep into my work the last 10 years that I never let myself think about anything except the next project then when moms condition got worse I new that I had to come home but didn't let myself think about you not until I overheard your name at the gas station about a boy and thought it might have been someone else" I said as I looked down I reg everything losing contact leaving the state and the town everything I said to you......

I stopped what I was doing seeing his expression and pulled him to me. "I know, I get it. I'm sorry for putting this on you. I should've tried harder, maybe let your parents let your parents tell you when I told them. I just didn't want to tell you over the phone, it seemed wrong."

It's no all your fault Im the one that disappeared for 10 years" I said softly as I look at u

"I could have tried harder to get you back to see him grow, to be there every time he stopped moving and scared the hell out of me. Maybe I wouldn't have been hit by the car when I was 4 months a long. He obviously came out just fine," I said.

I guess we were both been selfish me pretending that I didn't give a damn about anyone or anything and you wanting to be the one to tell me that I had a son but in person