Do Over *1x1 dark and desire*

I leaned into him for awhile, when he said that and nodded. "Yeah," I said softly. I stood carefully and slowly went to the bathroom. I undressed slowly not trying to be sexy a out it, and that was obvious because of how awkward if was. I got the warm water going then got in the bathroom.

I helped u as best I could and got undressed as well to make sure you didnt fall while in the shower when we were done I helped you to the bedroom and helped you get dressed then wentto clean up before it dried before rejoining you in the bedroom

I laid there quietly thinking about this situation. In my mind something was wrong with me, being that this was not my first. Seth isn't our first, more like third. He was the one that lived.

I laid down next ti you and softly wrapped my arks aroubd u holding u tight

I looked at him softly. "I should tell you something. Before Seth we had two others, and I knew because I tested with my doctor. The longest they ever lasted was 2 months, and that would happen. You were also working when it happened and it was always the day I chose to tell you. I was so afraid, that was when i stopped talking. I didn't know what to say, and I couldn't do anything about."

"And part of the reason u went down hill so quickly I take it leading us to divorce" I said softly

"Could be, I don't know. I was just unsure of what you would say, and I would rather deal with this, than take that chance," I said.

I nodded n held u tight "im sorry

"There's nothing more you could have done," I said.

I nodded "whats done is done" I said softly and kissed u

I kissed him back softly.

I rest my head softly against urs and held u tight. Rubbing your back softly.

I sighed softly and leaned my head into him.

I held u in my arms n kissed ur cheek "I promise nothing will pull me away this time

I kissed his cheek, "thanks."

I kissed ur lips softly "ur welcome my love

I smiled softly at him, "I'm still sorry for doubting you about what you would say. We were really young though, and when I brought up the subject you quickly shot me down saying you weren't ready and we couldn't afford to have one."

We were both very young and yes I wasnt sure if I wabted one at the time but I was also the most insecure out of the both of us I loved u alot and still do but it was hard for ne to be sure as ti why you chose me

"All I ever need to say is three words: I love you. That is all I can tell you. Women make choices because their heart tells them its the right thing to do, if they are good women. Everything comes from their heart and that is how I decided to be yours. It's also how I decided to stop searching for you because I had to give my heart to another piece of you. It's all I can do," I replied.

I nodded softly n kissed u deeply

I kissed him back.

I held u tight as I sighed softly "not exactly the night I had in mind tonight" I said softly.

"Me either," I sighed.

I kissed u softly and smiked alittle.

I kissed him back.