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I nodded, "I just wanted her to be safe. I ended up hurting her instead. He said when I shifted, she was thrown around and the cord wrapped around her neck and she couldn't breathe. He also said that if it wasn't for all the shifting we had to do she wouldn't be here."

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I nodded "im sorry my love.

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"Well it was either that or she get sliced in half, but she's strong like we are," I smiled at him.

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I nodded and kissed u softly."im just glad both of u are alive and I know she is gana be a strong girl when shes grown up just like her mother

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"She'll probably be more like you, but we won't know for some time."

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I nodded and kissed u deeply. "Yes but ur the stronger of the 2 of us.

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"In what way?" I asked.

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I sighed softly "emotionally and physically your stronger than I am u have carried heavier burdens than I have yetbu always camr out on top when u were out of it after the surgery i almost completely gave up the onky thing that kept me going was that little bundle laying in my arms n when things got harder all I had to do was look at her smiling and happy. When she watched me. Even though I was in pain and things looked like it wouldn't ever get better she always had a smile on her face bc she new somehow things were gana get better and she was gana c her mother alive and well." I said looking away feeling ashamed

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"No she didn't even realize what's going on with me. She wouldn't notice that I wasn't there," I said.

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Not until she was older." I said softly. "But she wouod care if both of US were not there..." I said softly.

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I nodded softly, "I think she will be fine though."

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As long as we are in her life I think so

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"Yeah," I smiled softly.

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I kissed u deeply as I held u tight in my arms and soghed softly.

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I kissed him back.

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I uust feel so ashamed to uave even thought of truing to end my life bc of the loss of you...or the thought of losing you..." I said softly.

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"I know how it feels. I've been there before. When we first started dating that two weeks you were gone, I was getting closer and closer everyday to not eating or sleeping. I went 4 days without sleeping and a week without eating, and after I found you I didn't eat until you woke and only slept after you woke up the first time," I said softly.

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"I barely slept and couldnt bring myself to eat anything the only time I slept was when I practicaly fell out of my chair from exhaustion. But made sure em was in her crib at the hospital when I felt that tired other than that I didnt eat or sleep. And felt so alone...dad only visited once when I was waiting to c u and em. But other than that never came around probably fearing the worst but not willing to deal with those emotions again when he lost mom

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"Well I invited him to come to dinner tonight. While I was putting Em to bed I called him and he said he'd love to," I said.

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I nodded softly "wat should we have?

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"I hadn't thought about it. Actually I was just thinking about what cute little outfit I was going to put on Emily," I giggled.

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I smiled and kissed u softly. "Just becareful ur not fully healed yet." I said deciding on spaghetti

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"I know and I am."

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I nodded and kissed u deeply. "What time is he coming?

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"6:30," I replied. "We still have 2 hours."

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