In the Dark *dark and desire*

I rest my head against urs softly.

I smiled at him.

Theres hust so much going on in my head right bow and idk what ti do about it...so much fear and worry for he future....qnd alot of it has to do with been the leader of this group this clan.....and ontop of that all clans look to my father to lead this war how the hell am I supposed to live uo to that? And still be an affective clan leader as well as war leader..." I said softly but seriously closing my eyes

I wrapped my arms around him. "Well, I know you can't do this and be the leader you need to be. I can't leave Emily, but I will be here for you."

I nodded and sighed. "I dont even know how to be a good leader. But I do know I will do my best to be both leader and father

"And that's all you need," I said.

"Bc I cant lose both of my girls. I wouldnt be able to love with myself" I saod softly and smiled holding u tight

I leaned into him, "and I don't want to lose you both either."

I nodded and kissed u softly. "As soon as she learns to walk im taking that job for my dad so he can spend more time with her

"If you have basic appliances for us then I can pack a bag  and take her play pen and we can  e with you as you work. I need a nice chair to relax in with her though, and you won't miss her milestones. In a month in a half she starts laughing and perhaps gurgling," I smiled.

I take it uv done aot of research while I was napping or away?" I said smiling

I nodded, "I would ask some of the other pack members who come to help me. The older females. They all said they were afraid that their kids would never take this chance like we did, and they said because you're an alpha and willing to have a child in this chaos, so is everyone else who thinks this is the right time."

"Im also willing to end this war anyway i can but I will not surrender to just anything either. I hate to say it but the previous generation is going quickly and wont be able to fight much longer and most of our gen are either dead dying or willing to fight to the death but we are loosing troops left and right. And idk what to do. We either end the war now or let it go to the next gen that will have even less of a chance at success bc of lack of troops." I said softly and sighed. "But atleast they are willing to have kids bc of us. They need something new to show them that no matter what we need to keep living our lives to the fullest. " I said softly as I relaxed in ur arms

"I think we're going to have no choice but to hope our children, like our parents did, will be the ones to make the solution to end the war."

I sighed softly. "Im hoping not to leave them that choice.and hoping that I can end it before shes old enough to begin her combat training required of an alpha." I said sihing softly.

I shrugged, "things will turn out as they should."

I nodded and sighed softly as I kiss u. "I guess..." you could hear thefear and worry in my voice

"She will be alright," I replied.

I nodded. "Shel have to be a strong one in order tonbe an alpha.

"But we still have more babies to have, because I want to have a little boy who is just like you," I replied.

I looked up at u n smiled "n I hope we can have more if what she did doesnt affect us having kids again

"The doctor said my uterus is fine and I still have my ovaries," I said.

I nodded "nothing else got damaged severely? " I asked I was more concerned with her living than anything when it happened.

I shook my head, "he said that while the cut did make it deep enough to cause a cash, a lot of the wound was blocked by the way I tried to turn."

2save Emily" I said simply