New Beginning

I nodded "yea" i said blushing alittle

"I'm not going to force you into having sex with me either. Though I will tell you if we do it won't be my first time, my first drink of blood went a little too far and I slept with the guy because of the high I felt. That's why I'm afraid of the blood, and I don't want to hurt people," I said.

(Something else that I thought would upset him is when she's drunk she sleeps with random guys so I made up a story to make her ok with it)

I sighed softly "thats how i was when i first took someones soul. There was a high but also alot of pain in my head but i ended up in a one week coma after word bc of how strong my abilities have become which is y i left. To find a way to control it which i have somewhat learned." i said softly not happy "and i think that this is a bad idea u going with them

I looked at him, "why nothing ever happens, and everyone there always smells gross. Some of them are werewolves, and the others are some kind of supernatural being. We never bring humans and anything else is not very tasteful, and drunks are the worst."

Because ur constantly giving urself to someone every time you go with then and getting drunk off ur ass to do it

"Well then I won't drink too much anymore ok?" I had a problem but didn't want him to know that, and I didn't want to get that fixed because I couldn't do that at home.

"Y dont i go with u to help u slow down" i said softly but seriously

"Ok, then we will do that," I said. "Just please don't tell anyone, I can't tell my parents because I don't want to be in a sobriety house. I would rather get help at home."

"Soon but at my place" i said softly

I looked at him, "but I also don't think I have a problem because if I'm at home I don't drink a lot."

"Yes but you still drink daily corect?" i asked softly

"Just something like this one, or maybe a shot glass of something," I said. "Normally it's a shot glass."

How much at a time?" i asked resting my hand on the dogs shoulder

"Usually 3 shots or one of these glasses," I replied.

I sighed softly "occasionally thats fine but at this rate if u were full human ud be giving urself alcohol poisoning bc of how much u drink. This isnt a high u want to induldge in often like any habit it gets extremely expensive bc u keep wanting more bc ur body slowly becomes used to it and will take more for you to get that same high u like so much. Either u slow down ur stop completely or i will leave u in ur own mess. If ur willing to let me help then i will help but if u refuse even once i will walk out that door so fast that u will never c me again." i said seriously "now are u willing to let me help u or no?" i asked softly

I looked at him and thought about it quietly. "I'll try, but it's not easy, drinking isn't something I can just slow down on or stop if I want to. I'm always going to be fighting it," I said softly.

"As long as u try thats what matters" i said softly. "But remember if u tell me no i will walk away. Bc i will not watch u drown in ur own blood so to speak bc of this habit and will not help u keep up with this fix" i saod softly taking a small sip of the wine

I nodded softly, "that's all I can do."

I nodded and rest my hand on urs. "I promise to help u as best i can as long as ur willing to let me help u

I nodded softly, knowing I wasn't ready to stop, but I couldn't lose him again. Drinking use to be fun then became a way to forget that I had killed someone once. Lastly, I wanted to forget the pain of him leaving. If he walks away again I don't know what I'll do.

I rest my hand on ur shoulder "i promise to help u through it and whatever else ur dealing with underbeath everything

"Just don't leave. Everyone I have ever cared about has left me," I looked at him as I revealed my worst fear that I seemed to live all the time. From the time I was very small to now.

I kiss yr cheek softly "i promise not to as long as u work with me

I nodded softly, wishing I could know he wasn't lying. I looked at Benny as she coughs again.

I rubbed her side softly before softly kissing ur cheek.